Maholo Beach Bar Tonight. !

so here's the top story of the day, i am heading to Mahalo Beach Bar tonight with Galen, Charm, Bobby, Julia, Rafi and the Cock, Alvin. It's been a long time since i've gone out with them, man.. sigh. well. i'm wearing my swim wear underneath this office wear and cardigan.. haha. cant wait to get out of the office!! well.. i'm not too sure how to act later but i guess if it gets to awkward, i'll just leave and head somewhere else. LIKE out w johnson?? lol. forget it. i'll rather be ALONE. whahaha.







accck. just got a "scolding" from my manager. not more slacking!!! tsk.

i'm so tired of being here.

I tried to kill the pain,
But only brought more.
(So much more)
I'm dying,
And I'm pouring, crimson regret, and betrayal.

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.
Am I too lost to be saved ?
Am I too lost ?
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

Do you remember me ?
Lost for so long.
Will you be on the other side ?
Will you forgive me ?

I'm dying,
Praying,
Bleeding,
Screaming.

Am I too lost to be saved ?
Am I too lost ?

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

(Return to me salvation)
(I want to DIE!)

My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.
My God! My Tourniquet,
Return to me salvation.

My wounds cry for the grave.
My soul cries, for deliverance.
Will I be denied ?
Christ! Tourniquet! My suicide.

Everybody's Fool

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Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
'Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is

Chill out, what you yellin' for
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You would see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
And you're talkin' to me one on one

But you've become
Somebody else around everyone else
Watchin' your back
And you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool
You look like a fool to me

Tell me
Why'd you have to go and make things so complicated
I see the way you're
Actin' like you're somebody else, gets me frustrated
And life's like this, you
You fall, and you crawl, and you break
And you take what you get
And you turn it into honesty
Promise me I'm never gonna find you flaking
No, no, no


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going under

Now I will tell you what I've done for you
50 thousand tears I've cried
Screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself
Maybe I'll wake up for once
Not tormented daily defeated by you
Just when I thought I'd reached the bottom
I'm dying again


I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through
I'm going under


Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so I don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so I can't trust myself anymore
I'm dying again


I'm going under
Drowning in you
I'm falling forever
I've got to break through


So go on and scream
Scream at me I"m so far away
I won't be broken again
I've got to breathe I can't keep going under.

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What a haunting song ... but hmm. its by Evanescence. like DUHhh. and it is damn nice. uplifting and yet sad in a sense. am spending my day dling midis to transfer to my hp and listening to Evanescence.. i need to write the stupid Student Log Book and i have nothing to write. damnit. i am wasting my youth here. a whole 6 months. accckk. went for yet another nice lunch with the interns from BIT. and i realised something among the ehh seven of us here is that : WE CAN ALL MAKE JOKES OUT OF NOTHING. lol... its really funny coz we would make up scenarios TOGETHER and laugh at how ridiculous it is. wahah. i would so tell you all what the jokes are about, but THEY ARE REALLY LONG. so... hmmm next time maybe..

I'm kinda feeling empty these few days... i dunno why. i need to breathe. =

LAalalaaalaaaaa elmo song.. elmo song.. laalaallaalalal elmo song.. elmo song. =P

ITS WORKIN after half a day trying to make it detect it!!! i had to manually find the correct settings.. today aint so sucky afterall !!! more pics. i promise. =)

and the data cable allows easy tranfers too, i can send SMSes thru the computer! ehhem. can " look busy " no need to look at the handphone. wahaha. need to go look busy now! cheers@! ;) someone commented that the phone has no bluetooth and its by motorola - hence the price will drop. WADEVER la. u want no tooths and a nokia stuffed up ur nose??? i'm a happy person right now. i am just happy with my buy. "and being one third broke at the start of the month". so just let me smile like an ass and keep ur comments to urself. lol. peace. =)

and in the suayness, bind them.

hard luck.

today was like off to a sucky bad start. lol. i woke up late and was rushing, well, kinda. (COme on. who wants to come to sucky work??? huh??) den you know wad? i realized my sucky identification pass was not in my bag. it was in yesterday's bag. ACCCK. i had to bother my nice friend Sabrina to bring down another sucky Trainee pass to identify myself so we can enter the sucky building.

den whilst in the sucky lift with Sabrina and Jonathan who was also LATE, i realised that Mervin had given me some documents/ brochures to photocopy, and i had LEFT THEM IN THE SUCKY LOCKER. why sucky?? coz, i always lock that SUCKY thing before i leave the building.

i had attached the sucky locker's keys to my sucky pass that i had suckily left in my bag at home on a sucky mid week
Wednesday and so, i cant help Mervin photocopy them sucky stuffs which he had asked me to do so this SUCKY MORNING, last evening. DAMNIT. so i went over to tell Mervin i forgot to bring my sucky keys and OBVIOUSLY, he noticed that i was sucky 35 mins late. DAMNIT argh. Damnnnnnn.

and never mind that, my Sucky laptop cant detect the USB cable of my nicenice HP. how stupid. and that means i cant transfer my pics or download ringtones. wah kao. i'm biased yes, nothing's wrong with the cable or hp. its the SUCKy Coy's SUCKy laptop. lol.

really sucky day-- its overhyped. its just that i cant believe i forgot to bring the stupid pass la.. shows how interested i am to come to work.. acccckkkkk. GOod MoRning to you too. =\

helllo hellomoto e365!!

heh!! yay!! bought my phone e365!! yooo woo!! this is just great!! this means i can start snapping at EVERYTHING and anything!!!! yeah!! it's really nice, and the screen is really big and all.. just slightly bigger than my samsung n620. hehe.. just one thing on my wanted list gone!! about 500 more things i want! nay, i'll just be happy with wad i have ok? =) yup yup... *BEAMS*

Hey U, where's the Antipode of my Pendant??

"Numb"


I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertone just caught in the undertone)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I've becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

i know how you feel, you. just like the song numb- it's a case of the bowling pin and the bowling ball. u might apologise again and again.. butbut.. the bowling ball will just hurt you and hurt you again? makes u wanna change jobs doesnt it??????

As the bowling ball, I APOLOGISE TO YOU the bowling pin, again. Shall we change our jobs from today on????? just a suggestion. no expectations? but i'll REALLY TRY... "IF you never try, you'll NEVER KNOW" .

Butterfly Kisses after Midnite Prayerss..??

Hellooo Peeps..

Its the Start of a Brand New Weekk. sighz. okok. here's the bright side:: only two more months of this attachment. eee. den i cant always update my blog already. eee. hmm. BETTER den anything to leave. in any case, if i sound harsh on my blog, is because it is my blog and i can just post whatever coz, i wont know who visits this crappy page and read abt me coz i put the URL on my friendster profile for ppl to visit. =) and so, i just post la. dun mean to aim at anyone. but if u read abt things and it sounds like you, den MAYBE it is about u la. lol.
and seriously, if u peeps have anything to wanna argue with me abt my views, just post la. i'm game for YOUR views. =)

its monday and cant wait till the weekends.. i've been out partying there couple of weekends and so far, so FUNFUNFUN!! brings me back to last friday nite. wahah. super funny... ok so me and carrie went to centro to support jeslyn and get some action at 77th's Street event at centro.. din know so many freebies (i nuovi lipstick and a SUPEER shiny card holder) and i got like a free manicure and air brush tattoo.. the tattoo was supposed to last for like 2 weeks but hmm... only 3 days and its like nearly all faded... but its a tribal one and its on the back of my shoulder.. quite nice i must say so myself. wahaha.

den we were playing 5-10 the game? and drinking like the drinks were on the house.. forgot who paid for the drinks but THANKS. it was fun... swee long and henry kept drinking and me and meiwen were acting silly and a lil paiseh coz we were sober but "high" . lol. i think as the nite drew to an end, i MISUNDERSTOOD someone for the couch. lol. lucky the girls were there and pulled me up before further damage was done to WHOEVER. i APOLOGISE. lol. funny.

THERE WAS SCHOOL the next day!! henry just went on and on drinking and justifying that we DIN NEEDA go to school. lol. henry was GONE! accckk. somehow managed to make it.. not too bad. and the weekend just drone on till today. hiaz. time flies... today's our anniversary. 9 months. =)

went to mahola beach bar with fi yesterday.. ehh walked past. the $#**! army finally decided that they had my bf for long enuff and gonna let him off for a week. accckkk. planning to go this weeek.. YEAH!! more party!!! beach volleyball anyone??