R u a Committed SmoKer?? then this one is for u.

MamBo NiTe oR RnB ?

RnB please. loads and plus Hip Hop. thats the waay too go. but i think friday nights at Phuture are more hyped. wednesdays for more "relaxed ambience". waha. hmmm. am feeling damn lethargic. miserable 3 hours of sleep. PARTTYYY !! FUNFUNFUN!!!

Harder to Breathe :: Maroon 5

"wrote a two page long letter to him. think i kinda broke down." -- anonymous--

dear anonymous,

wow. u must have stayed up late, i admire your determination to settle this situation you are having with ur special someone.

somethings are better left unsaid.

maybe the best thing to do is to just leave things as they are for a while and just (both) do your own thing for a while.


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"Harder To Breathe"

How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle

You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground I'm walking on

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did

When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe

Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control

Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold

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its weird when u feel so much and just wanna share it with someone anyone- special someone? and
yet you know that the person u are talking to cannot comprehend wad the F*%$ you are talking about coz u keep going on and on in circles and on and on with your views and prolly think you've gone ga-ga. hmm.

happens. well, i'm just really glad i've got my girl pals to hang out with to share thoughts, crap, bitch, whine, talk, laugh, bitch, crap, eat, joke, act silly with and do all the above twice, thrice again with. =)

last night was uber FUNFUNFUN, girls! thanks again. you know who u are. lovely time @ Sunny Daze! but SUPER ulu. lol.. lets just wait till my LONG AWAITED license yaya? =)

yup i like songs with meaningful lyrics, esp ones i can relate to.

i dun like ppl who talk so big. go screw urself.

Celebration /\ PicTuRes /\ Shoes.

these were taken @ nooch 20th Sept 2003 @ wheel lock place in celebration of Jiewei, Maria and the absent jobina. The September Babies!! waha. and of course, never give me a digicam or any camera. u wont see it till i've had my fun with it. am Lusting A DIGICAM. how gross. lol. THOSE are the shoes i bought @ ADIDAS sale. *Beams widely.* just lovely!

da Bahamas.

ohhh bahamas. blah blah blah ohhhh bermuda blahblahblah somemore. ho hum. cant sing the damn song.. by beach boys u know? i need a holiday! but first need to scrimp and save for it. maybe i'll visit gen in the uk when i get my graduation vacation in 2004! oooh but bahamas! the sun, sea, sand. heh. POSITIVE VIsuaLiSation.

3 words u simply must know:

1) Defenestrate: "throw someone or something out of window" (either formal or humourous)

"it is entertaining to defenestrate paper aeroplane!"

2) Garbology: "study of waste materials" the study of a cultural group by an examination of what it discards.

"Now we know what Oscar on Sesame Street does in his free time. oppps. ALL the time. "

3) Digerati: "computer experts"
"People strive to be among the digerati these days."

The Sky was Bruised, the world was black...

On a cold wet
afternoon
no room for love and emptiness
by a freeway
I confess I was lost in the pages
of a book
full of death
reading how we'll die alone
and if a god will lay to rest
anywhere we want to go
in your house
I long to be
room by room
patiently
I'll wait for you there
like a stone
I'll wait for you there
alone

and on my death bed
I will prey
to the gods and the angels
like a pagan
to anyone who will take me to heaven
to a place
i would recall
i was there so long ago
the sky was bruised
the world was black
and there you led me on

in your house
I long to be
room by room
patiently
I'll wait for you there
like a stone
I'll wait for you there
alone

in all I read
till the day was gone
and I sat in regret
in all the things I've done
for all that I've blessed
and all that I've wronged
in dreams till my death
I will wonder on

in your house
I long to be
room by room
patiently
I'll wait for you there
like a stone
I'll wait for you there
alone
alone

Letter to me... or maybe, no one at all. accck.

hear ye hear ye^ post morning headache. lack of sleep makes u cranky. esp, if u need to wake up @ 7 to go to crappy work, one thing i learnt from the keeping up till early mornin, PICK YOUR FIGHTS . hmm. only when u have the energy to keep awake till a conclusion or at least have enough hot coals to keep your engine running to prove your point.

i REALLY dun have the need to win. I'm not THAT competitive, i just dun understand why ppl cant just say "Ya, you know, you have a point there too." i dun feel the compulsion to WINWINWIN. Winning is not my priority, doing the best i can at the moment is. I dun recall demanding to be right. i just like to hear your views, my views. and maybe decide that we conclude.

EVERYONE HAS A STORY TO TELL. Freakin Feelins.. EVERYONE has them, whether or not they show up.

but i am a crazy byatch. (in an affectionate sorta way).. neurotic. maybe. emotional. yup. but just because one is well-liked by me to get emotional. u think i waste my thime getting emotional over ppl i cant be bothered by?? a tad overboard i go, tsktsk. i have issues, so deal with it. dun keep quiet. scream at me, make me see. else i wont see that i'm wrong.

i am one dreamy person i know, in a perfect world, there would be no wars, no such thing as getting upset, everything is gonna be SO colourful everyone might just get stuck in the 60s. i just need a lil more feeling from everyone. more Enthusiasm tthat the world still turns, there are still Gaziilions to accomplish and be grateful for the people they meet and have thought them a thing or two.

i have my flaws, one major one is that i see too much good in people. I have the tendency to keep EXPECTING ppl to be the best they can be, ya know, i always thought it was a good thing really, being able to see the good in ppl. to want them to be the best they can be- naive i am. then, i get stuck in crap and get disillusional. but answer this: If u could be the best u can be in a situation, IF you didnt try, you would NEVER EVER KNOW, right?

but then again, you are RIGHT, ppl aint nice, i have been just plain lying to myself for most part of my 19 years alive- i agree, i dun even know when people are truly being nice.

Welcome to the real world: Hypocrites GaLoRe. i have to deal with it.

BUT guess wad? I have been thru enough crap to NOTICE aka KNOW the real world is sad. and i am a hypocrite myself. * ---why? becoz i keep myself glad that i am here today because i "see" the good in people. for all that i am blessed. and for all that has brought me to where i am here. We are all not experts in life yet, we mere turning into the adulthood age. . . ( and i am thankful for that!)

On my checklist: Keep emotions in check. only for a second. then i whhine on my blog. like this. then, you'll see me chilling the next moment. just like YOU- i have become like u.

" I'm gonna fight them off, a seven-nation army couldn't hold me back."

I AM FRREEEEAKYY. so? bite me. =P